If you want to get to know me better know this, I hate silence.
There has to be some kind of noise around me at all times otherwise I think I might go crazy. When I sleep I have music playing, when I study I listen to music, when I’m just sitting in my room I listen to to the clicking of a clock while my thoughts run in circles around my head. Here’s a glimpse into my head and what I find myself thinking about during the silent moments of life.
With food in hand, I sit and I think about what I can do to eat better tomorrow. Like how maybe just a glass of water would have been better than this soda or how I could have had a banana instead of a granola bar.
I get up. I see that the time is flashing by, I think about how much time I’m wasting. I think about how if I actually had my drivers license I could be out doing something.
I go to my room I sit and think about how I wish I had a boyfriend to be able to miss. I feel the emptiness of the house.
I put in my headphones, a song comes on reminding me that God’s love surrounds us. My thoughts change I start feeling a warmth in my chest as I remember that I’m not alone. I remember all the people that I got to see today. I remember the smiles and the laughs. I think about how none of it would be possible without his love.
I take a breath as my mind and souls filled with a peace.
Tears fill my eyes as I think about all the people who don’t know the love of God.
“The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The Lord protects the unwary; when I was brought low, he saved me. Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. For you, Lord, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the Lord in the land of the living.”
Psalm 116:5-9 NIV
As I sit on my bed I pray for not only the people at my school I pray for my friends and my family. I pray for all the people who are in pain. My heart aches for them and my eyes cry out for them.
His love is so powerful it consumes are sins. He gave us his one and only son. He watched his son suffer for us. He unleashed all are sins on his only son for us. He loves us so much.
I would be lost without his love. I would be so overwhelmed by my sins. I would be still sitting on my bed thinks by about how I’m wasting my life and how I wish I had a boyfriend. With him, I’m thinking of the friends that I have brought to church. With him, I think of my life as a Christ follower. With him, a fire starts in my heart. With him, I’m the daughter of the one true king.
His arms are open wide and he loves you so much. You are a child of the one true king. You’re a prince/princess in his eyes.