Hey, guys, it’s been awhile since I’ve just posted a regular blog post. Don’t worry though part 4 of blackness will be out soon. 🐱
When I was little I used to stay up reading books like Little House on the Prairie, the Lightning Theif, and Ramona Quimby. I would get so upset if my parents made me go to bedsheets. I was in the middle of a book. I was literally the child that stayed up under my covers reading all night or least till I finished the book. Now that I’m older I stay up doing homework that I didn’t want to do earlier or trying to have a good conversation through messaging but it’s usually impossible.
Now that I’m realizing that I’m an adult and I’m gonna be moving ou and on my own in like less then 5 years I feel like I should be more mature and go to sleep super early and be up at the crack of dawn. The truth is though that I’m just not that type of person. I will never be the girl who wakes up early. I will be the night owl who stays up late and has to crawl out of bed in the morning. I’m not mad though cause that’s just who I am.
During one of my classes my teacher had us write down what made you “you”. This really made me think cause I didn’t know. I decided to create a scenario in my head of a crowded street I thought about how people could pick me out. Then I realized they wouldn’t be able to because I wouldn’t be o. The crowded street cause I hate crowds. I would be in a coffee shop with headphones in writing in a notebook while drinking a latte. Within one sentences you can tell that I like coffee, I hate crowds, I like to block out surrounding noises, I’m a writer and I love being on my own. You see I can’t ever explain myself in a normal way. I always have to be creative and imaginative about things.
As I sit here writing the AM gets closer and closer. My mind drifts from thinking about questions at school to thinking about my future. I think about the near future and the far. I imagine myself falling asleep next to someone as we watch reruns of Gilmore girls. My eyes drift off and next thing I know it I’m being shaken awake by my dad saying get up you have to get to school.
As you can tell my mind is all over the place as the night nears closer. As the night comes to a beginning now I just want to say that you are an amazing wonderful person and you will make a change. Good night everyone😘😘
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