Stressed out 

Why do schools think it’s a good idea to place so much pressure on one test? 

I would rather have more homework or a end of the semester project then a final worth 200 points that can make or break if you pass or not. I know I’m not the only one thinking this and I’m glad about that. This is the first year where I’ve been totally stressed though. I think it’s the pressure that I have to pass all my finals to be able to graduate early. It also might be that I have some classes that I have been struggling with because the concepts are so dense. 

My anxiety has flared up a few times to especially this morning when I was getting ready I got so nervous about failing my government final I was literally crying in my room cause I didn’t think I studied enough (I past with a 75.5%). I realized though that I needed to keep my nerves away so I went through my panic attack relief list. Which I created because I’m always. Alone when I have them and I have needed to have my own little escape system ready at all time. 

Panic attack relief list/ stress relief 

  1. Focus on my breathing and get it back to a normal pace or at least taking a few deep breaths.
  2. Find something to focus on, I usually will us the hem of my shirt and start messing with it I don’t know why it helps but it does. 
  3. Make sure I know my exits. 
  4. If I have headphones on me i put some of my favorite songs on I usually stick to up beat stuff. 
  5. Get something to drink and pace for a minute. Pacing always helps me because it gets my blood flowing and helps the stomach ache feeling I always get go away.

If it’s a full on panic attack I will leave the room and go to a bathroom or just outside. Then I will let my anxiety take over I accept that it’s happening and let my body go through the motions on its own. Which usually means shaking, sometimes crying and a lot of just trying to breathe. It’s not the best way to handle it but fighting it and trying to ignore it never helps. It always makes it worse to the point where I feel nauseous like I was when I was little and would get one. I would hold my head up high, hold my breathe, be very tense so the shaking would stop and just keep going on with what ever I was doing but it would lead to me freaking out in front of people and breaking down. 

My anxiety comes from crowds and feeling uncomfortable or stuck. I also just get them randomly like if I’m waiting for someone and Im getting stared at it really puts me on edge and all I want to do is run and hide in a hole (which is a totally other story). 

I’m so sorry for the lack of indepth posts I’ve just been studying so much and when I do have time to write I just want to sleep. Do t worry though next week I have a full week of posts for you. 

Do you have anxiety if so what is it and how do you handle it?

Love you all, I’ll be praying for all of you to pass whatever test your taking even if it’s a spiritual test your going through. 

Hailey XOXO


2 thoughts on “Stressed out 

  1. I know how the whole anxiety thing goes and how its not always the easiest thing to talk about- our steps of how to come down from an attack are so similar its crazy! The only thing I really do differently from you is instead of focusing on anything I really focus on this list of bible verses I have. It really helps just verses of who God says He is and who He says I am in Him. Prayers as you continue through finals- someday they will all just be a bitter memory and the goals of your success will be all that matters!!!

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